I cant stand wat I'm going through now.. Work is ok, but not the long working hours, not the irregular dinner/no dinner kind of life. It sucks to the max, seriously. And I dun sleep well on most nites, even on wkends.. DAMN IT!

Opportunity

Have u had the experience of wanting to do something, but u keep thinking u had all the time in the world to do it & u keep procrastinating... Then one fine day everything that could stop u from doing it happens all at the same time. No matter how hard u think & try, there's no way out.

Even when u've convinced yourself that u shldnt waste time regretting, it does get back at u every now & then.

I was seldom able to see an opportunity until it had ceased to be one. ~Mark Twain

I wish...

I dun have to work on all mondays.
I can go shopping every week & buy everything I like.
I can take a cab home after shopping.
I can have meals with frens often.
I can end work early this week cos I haven shop enough la!!

Sometimes I'm so mindful of how people think of me that I keep acting in ways that I think they will like, and I end up losing myself. I dun recall being like this in the past.. I wish things could just happen naturally, without me thinking, making plans & making them happen.

Cos the more u plan, the more things may not go according to wat u want. Most importantly, its so mental draining. I'm so tired!

有一种目光，直到分手时，才知道是眷恋；
有一种感觉，直到离别时，才明白是心痛；
有一种心情，直到难眠时，才发现是相思；
有一种缘份，直到梦醒时，才清楚是永恒.

有一种目光，彼此相识时，就知道有一天会眷恋；
有一种感觉，未曾离别时，就明白有一天会心痛……

Sweetie!!

This little sweetie is my cousin.. The last time I saw her was years ago, she was still a baby who only noe how to eat her fingers. Now she can tell me her name, how old she is, and play with us. Time flies.. Am happy that she's such a lovely girl now. I hope she stays like this forever... Amber I love u!

I so wanna have a daughter after seeing her today. I want a daughter so bubbly, cute and pretty. I need to find someone with huge eyes, and pray hard my daughter takes after his eyes.

Enlightened!

I woke up to use the toilet & I couldnt go back to sleeeepp, ahhh!!!

Didnt mean to emo so early in the morning, but I was back in bed trying to go back to sleep & my mind just drifted to think about some friends who just experienced break-up with their boyfriend/girlfriend. Then it got me thinking about a few years back when my bro broke up with his first gf. The story that he shared never fail to make me cry. The last time he went to meet her (after they broke up) -he wanted to pass her a gift. He didnt take the chance to talk to her, but left as soon as he gave her the present cos he was going to cry & he didnt want her to see that. Whenever I think of this I'll cry, even after so many years. Maybe I couldnt bear to see my bro or anyone go through this kind of heartbreak.. Even when I haven been through this, I can feel the pain..

Then of cos it made me think back about my own emotions in the past 2weeks. It was kind of a transition period of my life - change in work environment, jobscope, colleagues, eating & sleeping habits, etc. All this would have been sufficient to affect my mood, but I kept thinking it was because of someone who've left the bank. Maybe he did influence me a little, well its not important anymore.. I just feel silly thinking I was feeling 'sad' over someone whom I dun even noe much about & wat he was thinking. And someone who have moved on & we may never get to meet & interact ever after.

So why the hell am I making a big fuss over all this, when probably many other people are going through even greater pain than me..

Cant believe I'll wake up one fine day & get enlightened. It feels great to finally decide to put down some things & let fate bring me to wherever I shall be. :)

愛了就知道

Time flies! 1more week & I've worked for 10months. Well it isnt a long time, but I guess its time to think of some plans for the future. In the past 1 or 2months, I've seen so many transfers & resignations in my department and I realised thats how the banking industry is like. Everyone is moving around, looking for better jobs & challenging themselves constantly. And I have friends who graduate around the same time as me, already taking 2nd level CFA, etc.

All this serves as a good reminder to myself that I cant sit by & waste time. To have a better career, to be able to try different areas in the finance industry, I need to keep improving myself. Am thinking of taking up CFA or Masters, but I dunno if I'm ready to pick up studying again.. And studying something which I've never been interested in.. is indeed a challenge. I guess taking up Masters wont be that soon cos I'm already feeling the burden of having to repay my $18k school loan. The repaying has just started & will take 6years, I dun need another $20 or $30k loan to come in soon.

CFA is also challenging cos I'll have to commit to studying for the next 3 to 4years while working. Work itself is already time-consuming & mental draining. All I wanna do on weekends is to rest well, relax & spend time with frens & family. I just have to convince myself soon, set the goal for myself then work towards it!

The price of success: dedication, hard work, and a devotion to the things you want to see happen.
- Frank Lloyd Wright

I love 歌神!

Being appreciative

I like my small eyes cos I dun look scary when I stare at others.
I like my nose cos although its not very tall and sharp, its not flat and fat.
I like my lip cos its small. I hate sausage lips and big mouth, I dun find it sexy at all.
I like my high forehead cos my brother can feel me for fever efficiently.
I like my height cos when I walk pass short trees or structures, I dun have to bend down.
I like my short hands and legs cos I dun need that much space to sleep.

I'm glad I dun have a good memory to remember all the unhappy things in life.

Elliott Yamin - Wait for You

Are u missing or waiting for someone? Thats very silly, but wat to do?

Xiamen & Beijing

This is a relative's baby daughter.. So chubby!!

This dog is cute too! Very fluffy and leg very short..


This is Gu Lang Yu's scenery, its a beautiful place..
This is a maze where u can find the 12 chinese zodiac animals. I stopped finding the rest after I found my rabbit. Its tiring climbing up and down and its not so easy to spot them.
Took a super long time to find this rabbit, and equally long time to find a good spot to take this pic.
My mum and the dragon.
Group pic outside Tulou.


The inside looks like this..
Dun remember where this was taken, but I like this pic of us. Same height!
First day in Beijing!!

Lots of walking..
Find this really beautiful.. Still so well-maintained after many years.

Thats all for now.

I'm tired la.. Good things must wait. Continue later :)

WOOHOO!!!

Xiamen - Part 1

I'm back! Had a very fruitful and enjoyable trip.. It was great seeing my relatives who came to Singapore 10over years ago, when I was still in pri sch. They were all excited to see us when we came, and sent us off in tears when we left..

The village they lived in is a very backward place. Its a 4hour drive from Xiamen. No computer, no shopping area, basically they dun have any entertainment except television.

Our first meal in Xiamen. Sumptuous!
Our hotel in Xiamen was simply perfect! Breakfast was great, nice and clean rooms :)

Fung Dong Shi has very nice scenery. Still dun understand why the rock can remain in this position for so many years.


It was very cold when we took this pic. Can u tell from our expression?

This is some temple we visited..
I like the big 佛 in the background.
This flower is beautiful, but its a killer. If it hits your head, I think u need to be hospitalised. Cos when it fell to the floor, the loud thud caught everyone's attention. After that I had my hand on my head whenever I walk past those trees.

Thats how our village looks like..

The homes made of bricks are nice.
Cute babies are everywhere. This cutie just fell and hit the nose.
Happy Reunion :)

Thats about all with the pics I have. Something wrong with the SD card I still have about 1000 unsaved pics. Praying hard I get to recover them soon..

Hello guys, I'll be away in Xiamen and Beijing from 1st to 9th Apr.

Haven told many of my friends about the trip, so just in case u start wondering why I'm not replying to smses etc, yup thats why. Quite excited about the trip cos its my first time in China.. And finally the opportunity to bring my Grandma back to our hometown. Thats something I've been waiting for all this while.. And a break from work!

Gonna miss my Dad, bro, frens, colleagues, and him.. 9days feels like a long time..

When u listen to songs at different times, it triggers different emotions.

I cried while listening to this song this morning.

Hello, thanks for making my day. Tmr is my last workday for the week, I bet u're unaware.

Can we have some miracle tmr?

Daniel Ong's tweet made me cry, I dunno why. His love for his wife touches my heart everytime.

McDanielOng Am home...went out with wifey for post celebration macs...there was no 1 more i wanted to be with than my wifey. : ) i share this wit her.

I dreamt about going back to school last night.. I was rushing for lesson, lost my way in sch, forgot to bring textbook, brought the wrong notes, forgot about having a quiz, etc etc.

When I woke up, I was still terrified. And I recalled how stressful it was to be a student. Lots of things to worry about. I'm glad I've past that stage of life and I'm enjoying work life now.

Time to stop complaining about work and be contented with life. I'm grateful for the dream :)