I have many thoughts running in my mind right now, but I find it difficult to express them in words.. After a series of events, I've learnt my lesson. After almost a year in uni, I'm still so gullible, believing every single word people tell me. Its getting scarier and more stressful in business, where everyone gets such good results. And those are the people who have been constantly complaining to you that they dont understand this and that. At the end of the day, I'm the only one failing my test while everyone gets high marks. When I try to recall the things they have been telling me, and I try to piece it with their results, it doesnt match at all.

Its not that I dont know fake people are over the place, I just dont know they can fake it so well. And experiencing it yourself is different from hearing other's experience. I thought I'm already well-prepared for such an environment, yet it isnt so.

Recalling the times in JC, when we say we dont understand something, all of us really dont understand and the whole class really fail the test together. Maybe I'm too used to that and havent adjusted to this new environment. Its ok, we are constantly learning from our mistakes and I think its not too late for me to experience this now. I still have 2 more years in uni, and I'm very sure I wont fall into anyone's trap anymore.

But then again, there are still nice people around, helping and encouraging me when I'm down. It gets very tiring when we have to be wary of everyone around us, but I dont think I have a choice, I have to start practising from now.