Its an emotional night.. Must be the lack of sleep the past few days, and some things thats been kept in the heart for too long there's still no solution. It isnt resolved yet, but like wat Sy said, crying is a good way to throw some burden off. At least some was just thrown away, prob when I go to bed later, I will throw more.

Its back to the expectations that I have for people around me. With expectation there is always disappointment. I wanna just love myself and no one else. Sorry friends, its so selfish of me. But I dun wanna face all this shit anymore.