Breakfast Day

We went to eat dim sum this morning.. I'm so shag cos didnt have time to nap since then. I'm getting worried about adjusting to working life and having to wake up at 7am everyday.
I'm missing the char siew bao already, its so soft!

I realise we all look damn tired! Seldom wake up so early to eat breakfast you see.

Starting to miss you guys.. I wonder when we'll get to meet again.

This week we're all gonna be busy with different things..

To Mich, all the best as Ms Sam and have fun at MS.

To Yan and Ws, good luck for the competition and enjoy the trip!

To Aud, Mel and Harris, have fun in HK!

The rest just take care yar! :)

Congrats to Sy, she graduate already! Then on convo day she'll graduate again.. so kiasu.

So we went to have steak to celebrate and catch up, it was great!

We were going to Bugis to have dinner, Mo and his extremely cool signature is still there.

July birthday girls!

All of a sudden it feels like there are so many couples in the clique.. If the other few also start bringing their partners along, it would be great! Then all I have is Mich, and all Mich have is me! Check out Mich's blog to see wat we were doing when we were left out!

From this pic, can you see which pair is going to 'teng teng teng teng' soon?

Something is wrong with me this few days.. been eating little, sleeping little and doing silly things. When I was going to take a train, I start to dig for my keys instead of my ezlink card from my bag. When I'm at the lift reaching home, I'll start looking for my ez-link card instead of my keys. My mind and actions cant seem to coordinate. When I wanna do A, I'll end up doing B, C or D. Then I'll take quite a while to realise and recall. Is this some pre-first work blues? Probably it is, cos I'm stressed, anxious, nervous, yet excited and looking forward to work.

Anyway I just wanna show off this la. :)

Moses in SG (2)

You know wat? I can watch this video a million times!

When you have an idol, this is wat happens. Initially you fall for him/her due to some reasons, and you'll be doing all you can to find out more about this person. Then 2 things can happen, either you start to realise he's actually just a ok/sucky person, or in my case, you just keep discovering the wonderful traits of this person. I can watch this a million times not because we're looking at some super handsome 20+ guys. He's just a 38year-old guy, who have recently put on alot of weight (he should be around 200pounds now), but in the video I see him doing all he can to make the fans happy when we don't actually need all this. Fans will be happy without him doing anything, but he goes down stage to shake hands, give high fives, sign autograph and stand up high for fans to see him. If you've never been a fan, you wont know how much these gestures mean to us. It made me think of an article I read about him saying if his autograph or taking a pic with someone can make the person happy for very long, he doesnt mind doing it. Dunno if any of the idols out there thinks and does this, I'm so happy mine does. He said it and I really see him doing it. (I'm still thinking about him stopping to sign the autograph for me)

He's such a nice person I cant stop liking him!!!

Credits to Hoetian84 from Youtube.

Thank you so much.

There's this person that I've been wanting to thank for so long. Its gonna sound weird, but she's like someone put into my life to be there to solve my problems, help me think of solutions, tell me things that I dunno, remind me about things that I'll forget etc. The list goes on.. (She even saved my life a few times, buying medicine for me whenever I fall sick in hall.)

We went through a difficult but fun time during fyp, learnt alot from our prof, and got to know a fabulous friend through her. Just when I thought its the end of it when we graduated, she was there to give me a helping hand again when I remained jobless. Recommended me to apply for the bank she's working at, gave me alot of advice, gave me alot of encouragement when I go for interviews, and now.. I'm finally employed!!

Hey sy, told u that I owe you a meal.. But I know I owe you more than that.. Will just say a thank you first, then we can discuss how I can repay the rest slowly ok? Yeah we're colleagues now! :D

Moses in SG (1)

Just got back from seeing Moses! still very excited about it, cos he's a fabulous guy! Didnt get to go up stage, but he stood right in front of me for a even longer time than if I were to go up stage.. YEAH! Was just trying my luck by stretching out his pic and a marker, and he took it to sign for me. Clever Mich gave me a marker without ink, so he stood there so long poking the marker, and waited for us to pass him another one, isnt he great? Wanna put up some pics, but need to get them from Jy cos mine were very blur. Shall do it tmr cos I have a very important interview tmr morning.. Yeah we're going to see him again tmr!! :D

Thats him holding my book, signing for me!

Dogs and Cats

All of you should know I'm afraid of cats. I just realised, I'm afraid of dogs too. One of my tuition kid's neighbour has a dog, and each time I go for tuition, the dog will keep barking and barking. Its quite scary cos the bark is extremely loud, and the dog's head is always out of the gate. I checked with my kid already, she says the dog can actually squeeze its way out of the gate. Now I have the phobia of walking past people's house cos I'm afraid dogs would come forcing their head out the gate.

My neighbour has quite alot of visitors at her house.. the funny thing is, all her friends seem to have dogs. There was once I was going home, a dog started barking at me from her house. Today, I was going to bring an umbrella to my dad at compass point, the moment I opened my door, 2dogs were at my neighbour's gate, barking like mad. I thought its ok cos I dun think they could get out of the house so I came out. When I turned to leave, one of the dog was standing right in front of me! scare the hell out of me. And all the aunties were busy playing mahjong no one came to stop the dog. The dog almost followed me into the lift loh. I was shivering like mad when I got into the lift, damn it. The whole day, when my bro, my mum came back, the dogs barked like crazy. So irritating.. but I'm finally relieved now, cos I saw them leave just now. yes I was stalking them, made sure I saw the dogs go into the lift.. Finally have some peace now. Please dun come again, I dun like the both of you.

HOPE

Its nice to have hope.. but if its followed by disappointment, I'll rather not have it.

Been looking for a job for 2months plus.. been to a few interviews, but it always results in disappointment. Having 2interviews next week, I'm telling myself not to have too much hope, just do my best and hope for the best.

And my lip! Thought it would get well after I eat the chinese medicine, but its still very dry now. Dunno wat to do.. Took me great pain to finish those medicine cos it was extremely smelly I wanna puke each time I drink it. Had to drink 3times a day for 4 consecutive days. And after taking the medicine, I'll keep having diarrhoea. My lip felt so much better on the 2nd or 3rd day, but I was so weak from the diarrhoea. I've stopped eating Mac, Mos, chips and fried food, just bread, porridge and fish soup everyday. Wat else can I do?

Been listening to alot of MJ's songs.. Damn nice!! Billie Jean, Black or White, Smooth Criminal and Heal the World rocks!

I've learnt my lesson.. will not be lazy anymore, especially if its that painful!!

Been saying I need to re-format my laptop cos its giving me alot of problems, has virus, etc.. but I've been so lazy, till it finally died last week. Really died cos I cant even switch it on anymore.. Thats not a problem cos its still under warranty, but I haven done a backup for months! All my songs, videos, photos, resumes, cover letters, are all gone now!

Thats not the end.. that little heartache is nothing compared to this. I've been having cracked lips for very long too.. I think since feb? I need to apply alot of lipbalm everyday, but I've been relying on it too much I think it doesnt work now. Woke up yesterday morning with a very swollen, red and painful lip. Its so painful I cannot move my mouth abit. Its so bad that even when I drink water, it hurts. Skipped dinner just now because of that.. and another big problem, I cannot laugh, its damn pain even when I smile abit. If I see a doctor earlier, it wont worsen to this stage.. I've booked to see a chinese doctor tmr, and I'm prepared to stop eating all fried and oily food, plus drink very bitter medicine. But, I really cannot live without chicken wings, fries and potato chips leh.

Had steak with my family on monday.. love the ribeye steak, its very nice! And having spinach and carrots for sides is quite special..

Today had dinner with jy at Fisherman's Wharf.. its not too bad.

I had the salmon fillet, I like it!

Jy made me a nice gift - a book with pics and stories of us..

And there's Moses inside!

Hahaha, so funny!!
I like it alot.. thanks JY!

Its nice to have a camera cos I dun have to wait for frens to upload the pics, then send me online.. By then, its usually 1 or 2weeks later. Or most of the time I dun even remember to get the pics from them..

Had dinner with my sec sch frens last nite. Can we think of a name for us? Its weird calling u guys sec sch frens. Maybe Eleven? Since there's eleven of us.. Shall change when we think of a better name ok.

Had a nice dinner with Eleven.. thanks guys!


The mango cake was quite nice!

Cooked dinner today for the second time.. this time round with desserts. A very complicated dessert for beginners like me, so I did nothing the whole day but prepare, prepare and prepare..

Thats the same soup I cooked the other time.. its slightly better but still not ideal and I still dunno why..
My family's favourite - Tougay with oyster sauce
My favourite - Pork chop

Finally, the dessert - mango pudding! Its so tedious I dun think I'll make it again unless more people tell me its nice..

Birthday Present

Time flies.. my birthday is round the corner again. Nothing fanciful this year, I just wanna have a simple dinner with my family. And dinner with some close friends, thats about all. I've thought about it, there's nothing I want or need badly, so please dun get any presents for me. I'll be more than happy to just receive birthday wishes from friends. Sometimes a simple sms, a handmade gift or birthday cards mean so much more than presents. :)

That said, I'm feeling guilty cos I just bought an EXPENSIVE birthday present for myself!! I said there's nothing I want or need badly because I've just bought the thing that I've always wanted. I think about it every birthday, and its always the struggle between 'I'll get it' and 'but I dun really need it'.

I already have the best present and it will keep me happy for quite long, so save up the money and treat me to Starbucks next time!

Just realised I haven been posting pics here in such a long time.. haven been taking alot of pics anyway, so here's all I have!

Had a very tiring day yesterday that I slept a record-breaking 16hour last night. Was called to help out with a wsc event in ntu, it turned out that a group of 4-5 volunteers had to take care of groups of 23-25kids from morning till 5pm. My group of 4 had to take care of 24kids, one of the volunteers had to leave after lunch, leaving the 3 of us with the kids. It was very stressful cos the thing they enjoy most is running around! We have to move around to different game stations the whole day, have to watch them go toilet, bring them to lunch, play games with them, catch them back when they stray off, shout cheers with them, blah blah.

Everything else aside, the kids are very fun, thoughtful and random. Some of the younger kids keep calling us teacher when none of us look like one. And this very sweet girl wrote us a note, telling us the outing is very fun, she's enjoying herself and she wanna thank us for taking care of them. At times they get quite random too, my volunteer was asking them if anyone wants to go to the washroom, one kid raised her hand and asked 'Teacher, 等一下在bus可以吃面包吗?' Totally no link. Throughout the day they'll keep asking us such random questions to make us laugh.

The funny thing is, I dreamt of the kids last night. They were biting my hands.. I woke up in time just as they were about to bite my face. Haha, must be because I was with them the whole day so they appeared in my dream, but they're not that scary. In fact I miss them all!

巾帼枭雄

Recently all of us are watching 巾帼枭雄, its damn nice I think I like it more than 家好月圓. The good acting and extremely exciting plot is hard to come by. If u're as free as me, go watch it!

I just took up a tuition assignment, hope to take up more so I wont have to laze around at home everyday. I've been so lazy its scaring me.. I go to bed at 3 or 4am but I wont fall asleep till 7 or 8am, then I'll end up waking up at 2pm. My sleeping hours are so messed up!!

I'm planning to write down the list of things I need to do next week, like re-formatting my com, finish reading the 2 storybooks I've borrowed weeeeks ago etc. And maybe play more bejeweled and finish my word search book.

Slept for 14hours last nite and woke up today afternoon feeling quite guilty. Not because I slept for 14hours, but because its been a month since exams ended and I haven found a job, and I haven been doing anything meaningful.

I feel useless just sitting at home waiting for dinner every night so I made dinner today!! I made this very simple soup with corn, carrots, red dates, pork ribs, etc. Making soup is quite easy, u just have to throw in everything and let it simmer long enough. Its my first time and I think it turned out ok, we finished the whole pot of soup! But my steamed fish was a failure cos the sauce was too salty. It was really fun cooking, I'm going to learn more dishes and cook more!

Moses Chan

The Moses fansite that I've been visiting for the past one year is on hiatus now.. because this fan is now in love with Hugh Jackman she's giving up on moses. Alright, its a disappointing but valid reason. I started liking him since end of 2007, its been less than 2years now and its already slowly dying off.. but this fan have been spying moses since 2005.. its a damn long time so she's really good. If she fall in love with moses all over again one day, it will be the day she reopen the site. when will that be? will it even happen? when u're already in love with a new guy, will u still miss your ex? Not that I cant find moses' news myself on the net, but she's amazingly resourceful she always find additional stuffs like video clips, radio clips, magazine scans, pics of him on others' private blog, etc. I'm gonna miss out alot about him without her.. but moses, I still love u!

I think I'm good

I just have to do a few things: get changed into my swimming costume, pack my toiletries and get ready to walk to the swimming pool. Within that few minutes, I can make Sengkang rain!!!!! Without fail, it will happen. I'm really good.

Hey how's everyone? Haven been here for so long.. been just resting since exams ended, sent out lots of resumes but only had one interview so far.

So much have happened in the past one or two months.. and I haven been blogging since exams ended cos I needed some time for myself to sort out my thoughts and to accept all the things that happened. After a week I'm perfectly fine now.. no longer upset or unhappy over anything, and I hope to remain this way.. to stay happy no matter what, cos life is really that simple, good or bad, happy or sad.

Just finished a Hk drama 建築有情天. I dunno how I missed this show when it was aired in Hk 2years ago, but its a very motivating show. I'm envious of the architects in the show cos they're so passionate about their job. Having the passion is really good, cos u'll be sacrificing your sleep, weekends, holidays etc, but u're still a happy person cos its for something u really love.

Not too sure if this is convincing enough, but I always learn things from the Hk shows I watch, its really not just for fun or for Moses that I keep watching dramas. (he's not in this show but I love it so much) The thing about the dramas, they always have a message to convey and its always motivating! Probably its about the timing too, if I watch this show 2years ago it may not have any impact on me, but right now that I'm in the midst of looking for a suitable job, its helpful.

Talking about dramas, is the show 爱 that nice? I've heard that alot of dads, mums, grandparents like the show, my grandma is one of them. She was at my place today, and she didnt wanna go home with my uncle at 6.45pm cos she said she'll miss the front part of the show. For that 15mins of the show, she's willing to take public transport back at 10pm. Hahaha, so my drama addictions are inherited from my grandma!

I'm taking a break from portfolio management for a while, waiting for Moses' coffee show on scv at 10.30pm!! Exams started on 14th and will only end on 29th.. Its been dragging for too long I'll go crazy soon. Wanna have a really good sleep after exams, go swimming.. and my shows are waiting for me!

Had my last tutorial today, really LAST if I'm never going to be a student again. I've been quite certain that I wont wanna study again, yet deep down I'm hoping this is not the last.

Its a blessing to be a student, really. Its indeed stressful, we have tonnes of work, assignments, datelines to meet and all, but when u look back, dun u actually enjoyed the journey, probably met some good frens along the way, had some fun times together? And I think no matter how busy we are, once lessons end, its all our free time and up to us to decide wat to do with it. For the past 3years as a student, I think my friday has always been a free day. How nice is that? I'm going to miss this the most!

In less than a month's time I'm going to graduate, I'm just starting to wonder, how did the 3years past just like that? Its just so fast I think I missed out alot, from academic to non-academic, dropped some frens along the way and so on..

I'm actually having this strong feeling that I wanna be a student again, its so weird how this thought just came by so suddenly and strongly.. I hope it happens, but it will only happen when I find something I really like and would like to gain professional knowledge in that area, its not going to take place in the near future anyway, but I'll look forward to that. :)

Its an emotional night.. Must be the lack of sleep the past few days, and some things thats been kept in the heart for too long there's still no solution. It isnt resolved yet, but like wat Sy said, crying is a good way to throw some burden off. At least some was just thrown away, prob when I go to bed later, I will throw more.

Its back to the expectations that I have for people around me. With expectation there is always disappointment. I wanna just love myself and no one else. Sorry friends, its so selfish of me. But I dun wanna face all this shit anymore.

I had a very scary dream this morning that I woke up in tears! My roommate, my neighbour and I are all illegally staying in hall, and I dreamt that the hall people came to check our rooms when we were all sleeping, and they barged into our rooms while we were asleep. And they were all uncles! Then they started throwing our things out of the room, and we werent allowed to wash up or change. I started worrying for my exams, 3 weeks left and there's no place for me to study, so I started crying, then my roommate cried too. Then I woke up and found myself still safely on my bed, no uncles around, but I was in tears. Probably the dream was too real, and I realized how important my hall is, especially in the next few weeks!

After so many lessons learnt, I thought I'm better at judging people, but I'm not. I still suck at it. I'm disappointed with myself for falling for the same thing again and again.. I think life is really too short for u to keep making the same mistakes. Because we do take time to recover and build up confidence again. Probably I need to fall a few more times to become wise? I hope not.. cos it really hurts.

Been losing sleep like nobody's business, damn! Been doing nothing except fyp this whole week so if its not because of fyp, I cant think of why I cant get to sleep every night. When I dun have sufficient sleep, I cant think. When I cant think, I'll drink coffee. And probably because I drink coffee, I cant sleep. Tell me wat to do.

Just a few more sleepless nights.
Just a few more cans of nescafe to keep me going in the day.
Just 1 or 2 more long meeting in the Prof's room.

And we're free from FYP on FRIDAY!!

I'm in the midst of my last, and probably the most fruitful recess week. Fyp is still taking lots of my time, but I'm happy that we're starting to see results, and I'm really grateful to have Sy and Wf who have been very understanding and fun to be with.

Besides fyp, I'm busy trying to sleep early. My body will protest whenever I sleep late by giving me a very swollen eye or cracked lips the next day. I almost went blind when my contacts got lost in my swollen eye that day so I'm really scared now. Trying to get myself on bed by 12am every night no matter wat.

By the way, I'm starting to like coffee. I cant start my day proper without a cup in the morning. It keeps me more awake than I usually am. When I start working, I'm gonna get myself a coffee machine and I'll make coffee for myself every morning. A Moka Pot would be fine too, if I manage to find one in Sg.

A quote from a coffee lover:
When I'm not at home, I'm in the cafe. When I'm not in the cafe, I'm on my way there.

Love how the Italians start their day by going to a cafe, enjoy their coffee, read the papers, then to work. Can we have such a lifestyle in Sg?

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

To couples, stay happy and loving!

For the singles, forget any unhappy past and find a better one soon!

I've been very moody since sunday nite. The stupid fringe aside, I'm spending 90% of my time on the sucky FYP! My life is all about reading papers, one after another, never ending papers. And there's so much work to do before going for the new year break. Not in the mood for new year anymore. :(

The Haircut (2)

I was waiting for my turn to get my hair cut and was telling my mum I hope I dun get the Auntie (there were 5 of them - 2guys, 2ladies and 1 auntie). My mum was telling me its ok, if I really get the Auntie, I can ask the uncle after me to go ahead first. Then I was thinking its not very nice to do that, and its not nice to judge a person's professionalism by the age and appearance. So when it was my turn and I really got the Auntie, I decided to go ahead and not sabo the uncle after me. Thats how I got my new fringe.

Lesson learnt 1: When you choose not to be cruel to others, you're being cruel to yourself.

Lesson learnt 2: When you're a consumer, you have the right to fight for the best service you may get. And fight for it even if others may think you're calculative, picky, or watever, cos you're paying for it!

Lesson learnt 3: Dun act smart.

I still dun feel like going to sch later.

The Haircut

The purpose of this entry is to prepare those who will be meeting me in this 2weeks. I cut my fringe and its in quite a miserable state now. Its so miserably short I dunno how I'm going to face everyone from now on. My bro says he dun feel like talking to me cos he dun wanna see my hair and he told me not to put my head too near him!!!!

Dun feel like going to sch tmr!!

I'm happy cos there's finally something to look forward to in my life. Cant wait for exams to end, hope this time round everything goes smoothly.. CANT WAIT to meet M!!

2008十大勁歌金曲頒獎典禮

This year there's something special about the award ceremony - the 'senior' singers will pick a new singer to sing a song with them. If you're good, you dun have to worry about being picked. But if you're not up to the standard, then too bad. Bosco should go back to TVB to act. Its obvious he can't sing, especially when he's paired with Eason Chan, who didnt bother or could not save him.


Hacken Lee's voice is so damn good!

Had to wake up an hour earlier today at 8am to go for the volunteer work. At 8.20am, I was struggling, thinking if I should just drop an sms saying I have something on and wont be there. Staying committed is never easy. Thankfully I woke up and went, cos it was so fun! It was a little different today, instead of giving tuition, we played games with the kids. Its just so different playing with kids, they are so funny! Their actions, the things they do, the amount of energy they have... makes me happy. There was this game they had to blindfold themselves then run to the other side of the parade square to pass a sticker to their team member, I laughed like mad. When u're blindfolded, u really can walk in any weird direction. A P2 girl from my team almost walked into the canteen, which was quite a distance from where we were! Haha.

There were 3 brothers in my team, and I saw how united and cooperative they became when they were playing games! Kind of heartwarming to see a 13year old taking care instead of bullying his younger brothers. This was something I observed quite some time ago, I guess its generally true that the eldest in the family always turn out to be very sensible and obedient. The friends that I have who are the eldest in the family are always more tolerant and sensible. The younger ones always end up being demanding and spoilt. I'm a very good example! :)

I'm really envious of people who have cousins of around the same age. I do have many cousins, about 9 or 10 from my dad's side, but they're either married with kids, or the younger ones are still in sec sch. There's only my brother and I who's around this age. So we're unlike many of my frens, who have opportunities to hang out with cousins. Sometimes I feel bored just having my brother.

So I've decided, if I were to have kids in the future, I wanna have at least 3 or 4kids. And I'll keep their age gap within 1 or 2years so that they'll be close to one another. Then I'll persuade my bro to have many kids too, so my kids will have many cousins! We'll have a big and happy family, how lovely!! This is a long term resolution though..

As for 2009...

1) Hope I'll be able to find a job as soon as I graduate. Hopefully it would be related to finance and when I start working, I can find an area which I'm interested in and work towards it.

2) Really wish I could have more self-discipline. Need to be more consistent with my work, especially for fyp since we're on our own now.

3) Sleep early. This is really the toughest! Been talking about this for the longest time, and have never succeeded. I'll still try though.

4) Exercise regularly - swimming at least once or twice a week!

5) Be a better person - more tolerant towards everyone around me, be less demanding, be more forgiving. I wish I could stop badmouthing others, seriously. I know I complain too much about others, not realising I have many weaknesses too. Who am I to judge and criticise others?

I'm fortunate to have many good natured friends around me and I really have alot to learn from them. I've never heard them say a single bad thing about others and they think positively about others most of the time. I know I dun have such good traits within me, but I believe good habits can be cultivated.

Lets see if I can achieve any of this in 2009!

Happy 2009!

Before I end my first day of 2009, HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!! Have a happy and healthy year ahead, and hope everything that you wish for would come true!

I do have some new year resolutions too, but I'm too tired for anything now. Its a really good start for 2009, sleeping early on the first day!! One of the things I really wanna do is sleep early, thats the first step to good complexion and healthy lifestyle. I hope the bad habit of sleeping late ends with my holiday!

Jingyi, enlin and sarah are so mean!!! They make me so awake with the nasi lemak, teh ping, gossips and jokes, then they abandon me. Jy and en have gone home to sleep, sarah took my bed but I'm still so awake now I dunno what to do! Thinking of going for a swim since I'm rarely awake so early, but I'll sleep the rest of my day away if I do. And thats wasting a day of my precious holiday.

Anyway, the holidays are coming to an end soon! I've been doing nothing except watching dramas and shopping. I meant to take this one month break to fulfil some short-term goals and make some plans for my future, etc. Apparently I've done nothing of such. I continue to sleep late, wake up late and slack my days away without doing anything. Its my last holiday anyway, so heck it! 13more days to enjoy before hell begins infinitely! :)

甜的吃, 苦的也吃.

Without going through the tough times, we wont know how to cherish the good.

After last saturday's award ceremony, a fan put this on the blog which I thought was nice!
But, it kind of appeared too small that it looked like this as my wallpaper.
So for the past few days I totally cannot find any icons on my desktop. When I'm back home my dad and bro got quite frustrated while using my laptop, so I was forced to change.
Ya he didnt win any award, but the important thing is appearing handsome. Love his polka dot bow tie!