有一种目光，直到分手时，才知道是眷恋；
有一种感觉，直到离别时，才明白是心痛；
有一种心情，直到难眠时，才发现是相思；
有一种缘份，直到梦醒时，才清楚是永恒.

有一种目光，彼此相识时，就知道有一天会眷恋；
有一种感觉，未曾离别时，就明白有一天会心痛……

Sweetie!!

This little sweetie is my cousin.. The last time I saw her was years ago, she was still a baby who only noe how to eat her fingers. Now she can tell me her name, how old she is, and play with us. Time flies.. Am happy that she's such a lovely girl now. I hope she stays like this forever... Amber I love u!

I so wanna have a daughter after seeing her today. I want a daughter so bubbly, cute and pretty. I need to find someone with huge eyes, and pray hard my daughter takes after his eyes.

Enlightened!

I woke up to use the toilet & I couldnt go back to sleeeepp, ahhh!!!

Didnt mean to emo so early in the morning, but I was back in bed trying to go back to sleep & my mind just drifted to think about some friends who just experienced break-up with their boyfriend/girlfriend. Then it got me thinking about a few years back when my bro broke up with his first gf. The story that he shared never fail to make me cry. The last time he went to meet her (after they broke up) -he wanted to pass her a gift. He didnt take the chance to talk to her, but left as soon as he gave her the present cos he was going to cry & he didnt want her to see that. Whenever I think of this I'll cry, even after so many years. Maybe I couldnt bear to see my bro or anyone go through this kind of heartbreak.. Even when I haven been through this, I can feel the pain..

Then of cos it made me think back about my own emotions in the past 2weeks. It was kind of a transition period of my life - change in work environment, jobscope, colleagues, eating & sleeping habits, etc. All this would have been sufficient to affect my mood, but I kept thinking it was because of someone who've left the bank. Maybe he did influence me a little, well its not important anymore.. I just feel silly thinking I was feeling 'sad' over someone whom I dun even noe much about & wat he was thinking. And someone who have moved on & we may never get to meet & interact ever after.

So why the hell am I making a big fuss over all this, when probably many other people are going through even greater pain than me..

Cant believe I'll wake up one fine day & get enlightened. It feels great to finally decide to put down some things & let fate bring me to wherever I shall be. :)

愛了就知道

Time flies! 1more week & I've worked for 10months. Well it isnt a long time, but I guess its time to think of some plans for the future. In the past 1 or 2months, I've seen so many transfers & resignations in my department and I realised thats how the banking industry is like. Everyone is moving around, looking for better jobs & challenging themselves constantly. And I have friends who graduate around the same time as me, already taking 2nd level CFA, etc.

All this serves as a good reminder to myself that I cant sit by & waste time. To have a better career, to be able to try different areas in the finance industry, I need to keep improving myself. Am thinking of taking up CFA or Masters, but I dunno if I'm ready to pick up studying again.. And studying something which I've never been interested in.. is indeed a challenge. I guess taking up Masters wont be that soon cos I'm already feeling the burden of having to repay my $18k school loan. The repaying has just started & will take 6years, I dun need another $20 or $30k loan to come in soon.

CFA is also challenging cos I'll have to commit to studying for the next 3 to 4years while working. Work itself is already time-consuming & mental draining. All I wanna do on weekends is to rest well, relax & spend time with frens & family. I just have to convince myself soon, set the goal for myself then work towards it!

The price of success: dedication, hard work, and a devotion to the things you want to see happen.
- Frank Lloyd Wright

I love 歌神!